I'm Believing God!

...well, not yet. But, I'm going to!

I've begun reading Beth Moore's book, "Believing God", with some online friends, and it's amazing -- as are all of Beth's books (that I've read, anyway). ;o)

I have always had "trust issues". Why, I'm not sure. This is God we're talking about, after all! I *should* trust Him! He's proven Himself faithful to me, over and over in my life.

So, what's the problem, then? I honestly don't know.

I suppose it could be that I view God as another "human", most times. Not purposely, but that's how my brain tends to view Him... as someone capable of disappointing me, as so many others in my life have done. Or, as someone who'll abandon me.

I've always had this funky, distorted view that God reacts to my behaviour... If I do good things, God blesses me; if I do bad things, God makes my life a living disaster! So, when things go wrong in my life (as they're often prone to do), I tend to think I must've upset God, and I'm being punished for something. :-?

Whatever gave me this idea?

As I was reading my One-Year Bible the other day (or, perhaps it was while doing my Bible study homework: "Breaking Free" by Beth Moore), I came across a passage that basically said that, looking at life this way (punished for bad; blessed for good) is a very selfish thing. What makes us think the world revolves around us like that? Then it went on to explain that God doesn't do that... He doesn't "punish" for any little thing, or "bless" for trivial things.

(I don't feel like I'm explaining this right, and I wish I knew where I'd read this -- I'll have to look it up and re-write this later! LOL)

Sure, God *does* discipline us when we've gone against His will. But, not just for merely straying from the intended path.

And, yes, God *does* bless us... but, it's usually when we've walked obediently with Him.

I pray that God will change my view of Him -- make it so that I see Him for who He really is... GOD! (and, in the "Believing God" study, the first "faith statement" is that I believe "God is who He says He is").